The Business Mind of a Leaf Chaser

This is me.
I'm in about 2nd or 3rd grade here and that is exactly how I have felt for years chasing leaves in my brain.
In 15 days I will 50 and I finally "get myself".
I'm a leaf chaser, a shinny object in the corner distraction follower. Not many girls in the 60's were thought of as "distracted" I wasn't unruly or disruptive at least I don't remember being called that? But I think teachers were baffled by it. I have always had a racing mind, an eye out the window, a pencil tap tap tapping in my hand. Working and reworking a problem, or waiting until the last minute to do my work because "there had to be a better way" and the finally having to make a decision and get it turned in.
  Our dog Mable is a leaf chaser...throw the ball, she goes after it but then out of the corner of her eye she spies a tumbling leaf. The ultimate chase, the unpredictable tumbling, spinning, floating and the final WHAM of the paw on it; smell it decipher if it is edible then go "oh yeah I was chasing a ball!" She knows where the ball is, it fell, maybe it rolled a bit but it's not going any farther and she will get it and then bring it back...and I throw the damn ball, again.

  How does this tie into my business mind? I love the chase, the twirling, spinning chase in my mind. I can design a project while your speaking to me about it, in vision the marketing plan before the pamphlets are printed...figure out how to sell a set of mittens for an event or group. I see a mistake is not a mistake, some of my best ideas were happy accidents because I got off track and came back to it and discovered my unconscious decision maker had made the decision. I work well under pressure, thrive on deadlines (a must have for me), seize marketing opportunities before I even realize I've done it.
this is my leaf. I love the leaf.
  The flip side of all this? Here is my ball, I have an entire marketing plan in my head, the numbers on how much I need to do it, the list of groups, organizations, events and...in my head, unable to get it down on paper in a formal written plan. When I get to this point, There I am the pencil tapping, one eye out the window re worker, leaf chasing Mable. I am comfortable with the way I am, it's not a bad thing, it's also not a good thing. It doesn't mean that I am a poor business woman as I think that I have made some good decisions and set my goals on a steady path. There definately things I need to work on to be a better ball getter.
Just like Mable I know where the ball is, it might have rolled a bit under some papers, mixed into finishing an order, pushed aside by cold calling, but my spouse, friends even my banker know that in my own "leaf chasing way" I will bring back the damn ball, and I am pretty sure.
They will pick it up and throw it for me again.

Don't be afraid to be a leaf chaser. It's not the ball, sometimes it's the leaf on the way to the ball.

"The first step toward change is acceptance. Once you accept yourself, you open the door to change. That's all you have to do. Change is not something you do, it's something you allow."

-- Will Garcia